...and just as Karma gives me a pat on the back to say, "Hey, you deserve a bit of a reward for all the crap you've had to put up with," it instantly smacks me upside the head, telling me," What a dumbass, did you think you could really get away with it?" I mean, I've once again missed a very amazing opportunity lain on my lap, yet I flub it like a Michael Jordan dunk (sorry about the basketball reference, I've been playing NBA Street vol.2 almost nonstop lately). this missed chance isn't necessarily the only chance i have left at some kind of contentment, but was definitely a sure-shot missed nonetheless.
what to do, what to do? just a rhetorical question, i don't expect an answer anytime soon.