Such contradictions in life. I seem to be extremely unlucky. Yet, I am extremely fortunate. I guess thats the compromise. As hard as I may try to prevail, I never really do. And as much as I act as a failure, I am able to keep it together. Even a simple gesture of affection gets me nowhere, and risking my life driving drunk turns out to be a success. I think I'm going to have to do all the bad things more often since I get better results.